True Life: I’m Addicted to Event Planning

So, you’ve probably noticed that my post on this blog did not go up last Friday. Now this isn’t the first time I’ve missed a blog post and I can guarantee it will not be the last because I can be very forgetful. Sometimes, if I’ve had a long day or I have something planned for Friday I’ll just forget to write and I am completely at fault for that.

However, last week I had a very legitimate excuse as to why I missed my post. I was busy planning the decorations for a wedding.

My dear friend Meredith got married this past weekend and as my wedding gift to her, I agreed to coordinate all of the wedding decorations. In the past, I’ve put together office parties, baby showers, and birthday shindigs, all of which has over-the-top decorations so Meredith knew I could do it.

Well, when I agreed to decorate for her wedding, I was incredibly excited! I love planning events! After she asked me, I immediately jumped on Pinterest and started tracking down the best DIY projects to help her pull of a rustic, class, affordable wedding.

Well, when last Friday rolled around and I was covered in purple paint and burlap fiber and realized I only had a day to pull everything together, you know what I was thinking?

Wow, I am so glad Meredith let me do this because I am having the best time.

I absolutely love planning events and that never changes, even when the stress levels rise. Even on Sunday, a few hours before the wedding when I was covered in tree sap and lavender petals and running around like a mad man, I was still having fun. I love the feeling of getting stuff done and of seeing my creative vision come to life.

Of course, there are easier ways to be creative and express myself than decorating for events. Activities like painting or drawing are just as creative, even more so, and usually don’t involve me slicing up my legs while picking wildflowers or bruising my arms lugging firewood. However, painting and drawing do lack one thing: instant gratification.

You can paint a beautiful picture and wait months for anyone to even acknowledge it, but when it comes to planning events, you get immediate feedback from your audience. On Sunday, I spent five hours busting my butt on the decorations and flowers and was praised immediately for my work. I was immediately praised for my art and it felt really, really good. I am still beaming.

Anyway, I’m still in the process of recovering from this weekend so I’ll keep this post short. I promise my Write Makes Right post will be up on time. I have no excuses to miss it this week, other than who I am as a person.

-EMS a


The Creativity Drought

God I don’t even know what to write about so I’m going to keep typing and see what happens.

It’s been pretty slow in general within my life.  I live with Pretzel and it’s awesome but we’ve settled into a contented pattern.  The original idea was that we’d play Monster Hunter Generations for like- 1,000 hours.  But I got pretty bored and frustrated too quickly.  I then rapidly finished Dark Souls 1 so I’m left with this big media gap in my life.

I don’t know what to play!  I’ve got games but none of them jump out at me like the rest.  Fire Emblem is hard and I can do maybe one quest every two days.  Valkyria Chronicles requires me to set up a bunch of stuff with my PS Vita.  It feels like effort.  I just want life to be fun and easy and not require me to have to do things.  Books require time, video games require perseverance (and money), exercise is fucking goddamnit, I can’t even draw no matter how much I want to, and to top it off- NETFLIX WON’T GIVE ME WHAT I WANT.

And at work it’s similarly slow.  We only have like 10 projects a week.  To compare- we can turn like 80 in a busy week.

So I have an abundance of time at work so I’m like, “By jove!  I have plenty of time for learning!  ‘Tis time that I flex my brain and get creative!”

Then I busily do nothing.

I read blogs and look at portfolios and these people are like, “I create one new piece per day!”

How?  How?

I don’t have that many ideas.  It’s too hard for me to generate one.  And even when I do- having the passion ignite within me is almost impossible.  How do they do it?  Why can’t I?

I mean- granted, likely these people aren’t working a full time job- but it’s still baffling at all that they are so original all the time.  My problem might be that my job is specifically about emulation.  It’s not my job to create new buildings as much as it is to place design elements within existing ones.

I’m trying to get myself into other software but I just don’t know what to do.  I’ve 3D sculpted a tiny bit, I played with making hyper real materials.  Dunno- I need to search for the thing that drives me.

In the past I’d find something but over time I’d become disillusioned with it because effort in didn’t equal the enjoyment out.   And that’s where I feel most things are.  Starting a new game requires me to get through the “here’s how to play” segment.  Stories have lots of exposition in the beginning.  Exercise is fucking goddamnit.

So my new plan is to eat food and watch reruns.  I saw a meme that makes me think of my current predicament (and also you, Emily).


Note to self: insert funny caption.

I dunno- maybe I’m just in a slump.  Maybe I’m not challenged.  I keep just returning to familiar things that I know are fun instead of trying new things that might be.

Hopefully I rise out of this soon enough.  Sorry that this one wasn’t super long, people who read my posts.

I got nothing!